Dear Diary....

2009-06-02T08:37:00.000-07:00

2nd june.

Was out today and recieved a msg from Mom saying knight bit lala. Rushed home and she said they brought it to the vet already,vet said it'll be fine. Lala looked okay when i got home. got to know its ears and mouth had a cut and bled abit. damn pissed with whoever carried it out and then knight who wasn't tied up, rushed from inside the house to the back. lala immediately hopped out of arms and went crazy. also got to know it got so darn scared that it swam into the pond wtf...... i just held it for a long time once i got home, felt it shivering and it kinda fell asleep in my arms. stupid knight i didn't get to give him a good beating yet. but i'm going to soon. mom dad suggested to give the bunnies back to yve cos they are better off there without any dog danger.... i didn't want to let it go at first, but after much thought, i thought it'd def be better off back there. in the end aunt jane said we'll see how it goes for the next few days. i'm sorry yve babe if you're reading this, bet you're damn mad :(
i'm sorry for not keeping it safe like how you did. i promise i'll not let this shit happen again.

Giving you another chance was a mistake. all was a lie, no walking the talk, no nothing. just the last to know. i miss you badly,miss the times we had. but i'm sure i'd get over it someday soon. i'm healing.

1st june.

Chinese o's today. Honestly i can kinda tell the paper was easy. way easier compared to other papers i've ever did. Not that i'd score but i can somehow tell cos i can read more words than i ever had. But my chinese is hopeless so i wasn't really scared of how much i'd get, the result is always the same U. Ohwelllllll. After that, marc,bc and lynn came over for mahjong and movie. we taught marc how to play mahjong, he tried to act smart but he don't even know what is 7 or 9 in chinese characters! haha and that blur pig finally know after much attempt. left bout 7 then had dinner with dad's philipino customers. really nice family! idk why but i love the philipino english accent, its damn cute. haha!

31st May.

This sunday was a pretty special one. Rushed to st joseph's church after ballet today, to see couzy Edna recieving her first holy communion as mom is her god-mom which makes me her god-sister (: she looked really sweet in the white dress and flower ring thingy with a little veil on her head. After mass, there was a lunch buffet. And then i just found out edna has a middle name called marie, and i also found out their fam's sirname doesn't include a vedette(idk if i spelled correctly eunice!) cos thats her sister's middle name. wow i'm so dumb. but anyways edna marie is such a pretty name.
Got home after church and yvett's fam came over with the two baby rabbits,from yve's bunnies,that i've been anticipating for- dipsy and lala(the bunnies all have reasons for their name) they're so cute and lovable! Dad has been working on a cage for em and it was just done not too long ago. The only thing that 's preventing them from having the perfect haven compared to how they're treated in yve's, is knight........ they're super scared of him. yve's fam treats them like precious babies. doing the best to give them the love you give them yve.

2009-05-25T06:23:00.000-07:00

It just isn't working out babe,

i'm broken and tired.

All this time I was wasting
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down

And it's taking me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can say that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry

Looking so innocent
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold

And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before

You had me falling for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

So you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for

And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before

You're not sorry.

2009-03-20T20:49:00.000-07:00

Hi all!
Wow i blog like once a month huh? haha just can't find the time to. Or rather i'm super dee lazy.
What's been happening for the one month? Hmmm just the same old same old.

Some that i can remember are like....

The cross country run. This year competitors will pair up and each run half only. So it's not so bad compared to the past years, we have to run the whole thing like bout 4 km++! So anyways Liangyi and me got a trophy or 4th place! Not too bad huh babe :D The worst shit was when i was finishing my part, my stomach gave me a hard time. I can feel my shit almost coming out. So after i'm done with i continued running straight to the toilet! haha! okay i'm gross!

Cathecism classes are on every saturday. I've learnt alot about the roman catholic faith and all. Now we're gonna start on the birth of jesus soon (: and our catechist is like really funny! so class is much more entertaining too. haha.

Then.. dentist gave me the rubber thingys to put on my braces, for i don't know what reason. But it hurts! giving me a headache and all. So when you see me now i'd look funny :O But he said this was kinda like the last stage so i might be taking my braces off soon. yayy can't wait! and and and my wisdom teeth are growing! according to him. Which sucks coz it hurts too. my poor mouth.... :(

March holidays aren't holidays for me. I've got school from mon to fri and ballet like five times this week, coz my ballet exam is on the 31st. Just have to persevere for a few more days! Ms Kok offered 5 of us in class to go for intermediate exam this september, i'm totally up for it but my mom doesn't want me to coz of the O's this year. But i think i'm able to balance my studies with that, just that i'll have lesser free time... How? Should i?

Then there was Romp at Zouk. it was super uber friggin packed! Went with bby and some of his friends. March all.. Maz.. Irene, Cheryl and Hidaya there too. And Willy all? haha i was surprised that he went. The dancefloor was packed like dunnow what, i almost fainted inside. haha! But the music was good stuff (:

And the next day was me and Bland's 5th month. yayyy (: love you bby.

Family outing on thurs. Been awhile since we had a proper one. We went to bowl (haha i suck at it but my mom and sis were the worsts!) rushed dinner coz we were late for the movie Copmall. I'm not sure if its called that but the show was pretty good, really hilarious thats why!

Yesterday* although i'm sick, went to east coast with the cck church people. played games and picnicked^^ Also got to know pastor May's nephew and niece. they are super hyper kids! really talkative. haha. It was really fun! til i didn't go for ballet. bleh. Really great people.. i love everyone there!
By the ways.. I feel like going for a mission trip this end of year :)

Okay my head is burning hot now, i shall go napnap before catechism starts. Have a great week... or month ahead!

xoxo

2009-02-13T10:19:00.000-08:00

Okay i haven't blog in a million years. past weeks... er i can't rmb much. only remembered clubbing at the pavillion?? It wasn't that good. er studying. ballet. sheesha. oh i've started catechism classes :D yay. ok thats all i can rmb. gosh i have such bad memory. or mayb i'm tired.

I'm so lazy to blog. maybe i should just delete my blog. i'm really not that blogging type.

Study study study study study study study study study study study study study thats awwwl i have to have in my mind this year. I have to focusssssssssss!

help.

2009-02-13T10:14:00.000-08:00

HI BLOG!

blandon asked me to type this to start with.
er okayyy.

Cny

2009-02-01T05:47:00.001-08:00

Cny was pretty okay... Just that i think i've grown sideways cuz of all that food that. For that three days we've been having steamboat :D My faveeee. Same old same old, relatives and couz's came over. for reunion on sunday, only this time it was lunch and dinner. Gambled with heartattack and blackjack. Heartattack was more like heartache(yve and me came up with that) cuz when the pool's collected with loads of our money and nobody gets lucky to bet on it all and get it, it belongs to no one! First day of visiting; relatives came again to visit and exchange ang pows in the morning. Later on, went to grandma's(mom's side). Lunch wasn't steamboat, but the food was great tho! I didn't have luck there :( Headed to grandma's sister's place in the evening. It was pretty boring there. Just had abit of steamboat. Went back after that and went over to bby's place, mahjong and gambled there, got an angpow from there too ^^ 2nd day; went to yvett's place for awhile to blackjack and mahjong with yve bri and justin then met up with abigail, daryl, desmond, hui etc. at tanah merah to go house visiting. Went home in the evening and turns out in the end, mom's side came over, asked hui and bland came too, ren's friends were over too. so there were like a lot of people in my house. Then when we gambled it was like a gambing den. haha! okay thats awwwl i can remember. boohoo i didn't get much ang pows this year, how bout you guys? guess the older we get, the lesser huh. ohh wellllls (:

xoxo

2009-01-24T04:14:00.000-08:00

Hey! Its been pretty long since i made a post. Can't find the time to. Last two weeks were mundane. hmmm can't really remember much, i've sucha bad brain.

The week before this.... bland and i had quite a big squabble, almost broke up but we managed to save our relationship in the end. i don't know why sometimes we get ourselves down into all these for no apparent reason :(
Studied with bland after school.
Got a top and a tote with mom.
Studied with colette on wednesdays before ballet for two long hours.
Went shopping with yvett and bri last sunday, got pumps.
Hui's coming back for school again this year. *Babe i know the people and all are kinda different now, and cx won't be in school anymore but thats not the whole point. We're gonna work very hard to do well kay? This year's so not going to be the same as last's!*
Went out with bland for dinner on friday, it was our third month. But it sucked pretty much that day. I guess it was my fault for keeping from you all this while hun, but i really didn't know what to do. Glad everything's okay now. I'm sorry hun.
I don't know why but i'm already started with poker cards, i even brought it to school and played in assembly. Think i'm all ready for the new year gambling hehe :D
Had abit of soccer with abigail, daryl and all on thurs.
Helped to bring the old folks from the temple opp our school over to watch the cny performance yesterday, they're super cute esp the one me and wayne were to take care of. Her name's 'Ah eng'. She speaks cantonese but i didn't know how to. Luckily wayne could. And she told wayne that one of her son commited sucide, but she still seemed like one of the strongest,happiest person among all of them. Another one talked bout how many children she's got but none wants to take care of her. My heart sorta ached when i see these people. Its like they weren't wanted. I'd never leave my parents in a home.
Hmmm... Oh and i closed my tongue piercing. guess i'm tired of it already :)
Thats that much i can remember.

Damn. The neighbours here aren't very nice. Stuck up and all. They complain for every single thing, like when we were renovating and today they complained about knight's barking. I mean come on, you'd expect noises during renovations and duh, dogs obviously barks right? Well knight doesn't bark that much for nothing too tho anyways. and i don't think calling the police will do much help to you either dude.
It sucks when your neighbours are like that..

Shopped with suyin and shili/chilli yesterday, they got their stuff but i didn't get anything! i'm soo choosy.
Bland came over at night and while watcing tv, we ended up sleeping in the living room with the tv on til 4 plus in the morn! Folks were fast asleep by then, think they didn't know cuz they wouldn't allow that. And that pig finally woke up and cycle home. (he really sleeps like a pig)
Went to siglap cc in the morning today to help out again, there was an event for the elderly. This time there were more of them, from different homes. Tried to communicate with them. Its when they say thank you and just by seeing them smile, really makes your heart full. Makes me wana reach out to them more. May God be with them always...
Went to pp with mom in the afternoon and finally got one more top i needed. yay.

Church and reunion dinner tomorrow, off to bed now.
Happy cny!

xoxo

2009-01-09T09:31:00.000-08:00

Been a week at school now. and its already so stressing! i've become so lazy to study. english is getting harder, ss too. i don't know if i can do it this year...

Did nothing much this week.....

work on monday and today - which is my last day yayyyyyy.
extra classes started already, how sucky.
went to town on tuesday after school to see if i could get anything for the new year - currently, i've only got a pair of skirt.
ballet increased to 3 times a week now, but that also means i'll get to see cow cow colette more.
braces appointment, and i got my teeth filed! so that my teeth can be pushed inwards more. it didn't hurt but i've got some stupid rubber on and it hurts bad man. until now.
had a really bad day on thurs by some teachers in school.
baby cycle over to watch movies at night....

i need to get my new stufffffff, my sis's like done gettin em already. bland too. and he's gona buy another shoe?? like wth baby are you retarded, you've already got 19 pair of shoes!!

probably gona start shoppping tomorrow

gees i need the motivation to study too. i can't get starteddddd!

S.O.S..........

and gahhhh i feel like apple strudles now! alrighty off to find some food, i'm starving.
Laters!

xoxo

2009-01-02T10:34:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR (:

2008 was pretty sucky for me initially, but it got better during the last few months.
yo 2009, please be a good year for me.

School started..... how great. the holidays seemed so short! i wish they were longer. its kinda funny to think i'm gona be 17 this year.
spent new year at batam with mom's side. went off on the 30th and just got back yesterday. what really sucked is that i can't spend new year with baby :(

overall batam was awesome.
especially the water sports. jet ski, banana boat, parasailing.
jet ski and parasailing was the shit! i had flying fox that day too. the line goes from the top of the hotel. my first time flying.
then there were like two little monkeys locked at the watersports area. and i played with them! but the girl monkey pulled my hair cos she didn't like girls:/ the guy was really naughty. really cute.

the next day was new year eve. had go kart in the morning. went to the stupid shopping center in the afternoon. there was nothing good there. we were all like falling asleep when we walked around. haha! but really.
at night there was this dinner at the hotel. dress code: 70s.
i didn't brought any retro stuff. but they gave us those cute sunglass. the food was pretty sucky. there were games and my gramps got chosen, they had to like burst the balloon in the shortest time with their body pressed together and stuff! haha!! then the live band played all the 70s music which was great! and everyone started going upfront and danced. me and my cousins went crazy. haha. i can't believe my dad danced too.
after counting down, we went to outside to the beach and set the fireworks we bought. it was like whoaa, really loud, really close, real awesome. great experience! got back to the hotel bout 2 plus to bathe. played cards with eunice and all til 4+.

next day was the day we're leaving, but befo that we had cable ski-ing! was tough man. its tougher than wakeboarding, cos the launching part sucks. i didn't even go for a round, my bro did. now my arms are still aching like shit!
left the place bout 3.
batam was great (:
think thats bout it, i'm sleepyyyy :/

Some of the pics.. didn't take during the watersports. boohoo.

Rock N Roll

the whole family was shakin it

the awesome fireworks we made.

xoxo

2008-12-29T03:28:00.000-08:00

Hello earthlings!

I just got back from church youth camp. it was blandon's church actually. CCK(Chapel of Christ the King). well...it was GREAT (:
honestly i've never been to a chirstian church before, i only follow mom to catholic churches since i was little. so this was a whole new thing for me. i didn't plan on going actually, cos i had work and stuff. but i made a decision to go in the end. so i went...
i felt pretty awkward on the first day cuz i didn't really know anyone there. but after awhile, i felt really comfortable b'cuz everyone there were really warm people, esp my group: PEAR! haha.
on that day we had amazing race and games etc. my leg already ached like hell that night.
the next day was pretty relaxed. there were games, devotion, praise and worship, sermon everyday. but it was different on the second day, like pastor spoke to open our hearts to the Lord that night. for the first time, i really felt God's presence. what the pastor said really touched me and most others there. some started crying and all (including me). some prayed for each other, and penny prayed for my problems. i really felt it that night.
on the 3rd day, was more on learning a dance, preparing each group skits and stuff for the fun night, which was on that night.
my group's skit was super retarded! damn lame and i couldn't stop laughing. after that there were more games and we had like karaoke session in the chapel. funny huh. haha. but it was really fun when some of us jumped around and bland forever shouting in the mic. everyone stayed up late that night. i slept at 4.

Overall... i really enjoyed the camp very much. starting to miss it already...
i don't know baby but you were being pretty cold and all at times during the camp, if its something wrong i did i'm sorry. but thank you sweetie for pulling me in this camp. b'cos it made quite a great impact in my life.
and thru this camp, i learnt so much more about Him, how deeply He loves us. i feel closer to God now, after drifting pretty far from Him for months. and i'm glad (:
Praise to you Lord!

Psalms 23.
Even though i walk through the valley of death, I will fear no evil, for you are
with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

xoxo

2008-12-25T09:05:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas!

one of my favourite time of the year.... (: (:

Christmas eve.
like every year, the whole fam(dad's side) will come over to my place to celebrate, and open our presents only at 12. invited bland and aikkai too. mmm this year we had honey baked ham, roasted chicken, shepherd's pie etc, aunt jane made pasta which has white wine in it too. mom was upset that her shepherd's pie didn't taste that good. (but i think its fine mom:) really) every year yve me ren and bri gets less excited on opening the presents. haha we were way
more impatient when we were little, anticipating dolls and toys.

Today went over to aunt betty's place to celebrate with my mom's side. food was awesome as usual. i was pretty tired and i slept for bout and hour. i got more presents here than yesterday :D

santarina eating the ham yo

bells and angel

as you can see my crib is still under stupid construction... ugh.

alrighty i'm off to bed now. i've got church camp tmoz till monday.

merry christmas yall!

xoxo

2008-12-22T09:36:00.000-08:00

A2 + A2 + B3. I've got 7 points. good? bad? i think i did bad. okay i'm not gona talk about it. pissed :(

its a monday,had work. met up with hui after that and headed to town to catch twilight. it was freakin full so we only got the front row, which kinda suck. cos my neck's sorta hurtin now. but i think the movie was pretty good. i expected worse b'cos my sister and couz told me it was a dissapointment. edward's dad,carlisle was much more hotter than edward :D the baseball part was really cool. and jacob would look much hotter if he hadn't had that that wig on. haha he was cute lil shark boy back a few yrs...
after the show we had dinner. then walked around and hui got lingerie.. again! haha and i looked for what to buy bland for christmas. but i couldn't find any good stuff in the end..
got home bout 12, there was zouk that night but nahhh. good girl^^ and i just recovered from some weird sickness.

speaking of weird sickness i havent talked bout that. it started when we all got back on saturday. nothin much. but everyone got sick on sunday. i was suppose to go for ballet lesson in the morning but i couldn't get up, i was feeling too weak to even move. and soon enough diarrhoea came, and vomiting too. realising ren,grandma,yve has got the same thing too. mom got a pretty high fever. we thot its either food poisoning or some virus. bland came over to 'nurse me to health'. he made me ate chinese pills and some sick powder down. but it worked cos i felt all better the next day..... thanks hun!

SEBANA SEBANA SEBANA.

it's spelled sebana by the way not sabana. haha!

DAY 1

picked yve and all up and headed to sembawang yacht club. dad moved the yacht there cos there was no space to park the yacht at changi. i think i still prefer the changi one! got on board soon and we headed to sea immigration thingy before we got into malaysian waters. turns out they were on a boat. so we had to pass our passports to them by a fishing net, it was really cute. haha. they didn't even bother to check the people on board- i guess this is how mas selamat got away. when they're done with the passports, we continued to head to sebana. when we're about to reach soon, grandpa got down to wakeboard... AGAIN. its so unfair he always gets to do it but we don't. soon we reached. we took bout 2 hrs or less? i can't remember but it felt pretty short. dad parked the yacht and we were served with welcome drinks- fruit punch! checked in and all, then we headed for our rooms. 3 rooms in total. and they were big man, the toilet was whooo. yve ren bri and i wanted to have one room to ourselves but my folks think its really weird to sleep with yve's and yve's thinks so too. so we decided we could move to sleep in my gramps at night. haha and thats what we did, moved all the extra beds there. then we went to check out the pool and decided to swim. played dodge ball and water polo. it was already late evening when we bathed, so we had dinner at the restaurant. i think the food wasn't that awes. after that we headed back to yve's room to watch her favourite show. me and bri kept insultin how annoyingly dramatic it was. haha! after that.... we went out to star gaze. cos there were a hell lot of stars there. it was really beautiful.

DAY 2

aunt jane and uncle tim made instant noodles for breakfast at their room for everybody. afterthat we called cabs to bring us to the out of the resort and to a little town nearby. it was 30RM/cab to and fro if i'm not wrong. me and bri were so hoping there was like a shopping center or somethin. but so much for goin out of the resort. it was all little shops. we walked around and as usual got LOADS of bubblegum. then we went to this restaurant and had our lunch. the adults were nuts! they ordered A LOT of dishes. i think its the first time in my life having so many dishes for lunch. thr were lobsters, fish, omelettes, hotplates, noodles, cockles and loads mo. yvett kept complaining how cruel we were to eat the lobster.... she's nuts. haha. when we headed back to the hotel, it was already late afternoon. wanted to tan abit but the sun wasn't strong enough and the pool side was pretty full. so we played volleyball at the resort's court.

and this was the best part, the sun went down and our folks arranged for us to go see fireflies. only all of us kids plus grandpa went b'cos the little boat could take up bout only 7 people,so the adults and grandma didn't go. the boat ride was really nice like it was cold and dark but you could still see the reddish sky on the west. soon we saw little lights glowing and twinkling on the mangroves. they were just like christmas lights! the man stopped the boat and we all started catching the fireflies and putting it into our plastic bags that we brought along. everyone were like competing to get the fireflies, and it was pretty scary cos the boat always seemed like it was gona rock over. after bout half an hour or more, we rode back to the resort. and i think i got the most fireflies! when we were back in the light, the fireflies looked just like cockroaches. had dinner and all, then in the end we decided to let the fireflies free :D

DAY 3

got up and realised it was too late to go cycling already. so went to wash up and

my fam had room delivery breakfast. the rest went for the breakfast buffet. haha. yve said they sneaked some pancakes out cos the buffet was about to end soon, and grandpa was like literally stuffing up his pockets. checked out and all that bout 12 and we headed to the yacht. stopped by a water house- i think its called a kelong or smth. the adults wanted to buy some fresh fish home. so we got down and some of em tried to fish for it. yve and me just sat at the little house, and she went complaining bout how mean it was to catch the fish. (but guess wud... she ate em too in the end haha) we caught bout 7 fishes in total. then set off home after. okay i'm really tired to continue, ill just let the pictures talk yeah?

xoxo

2008-12-17T09:09:00.000-08:00

TMOZ RESULTS DAY!!!! :O :O :O
but i aint collectin it tmoz. gettin it only on mon, cuz i'll be goin to sabana(or however you spell it) by pap's boat. that's the best part bout that..
yve's family will be with us too! anotha awes thing.
my DADDY says: chill first before knowing da result. funny pap i have huh?
its just 3 days, i'll be back by saturday.
but still i'm gona miss baby like shit..... ouhh baby :(
anyways folks are screamin at me to sleep now. ugh.
be back on sat.
all da best guys!
:)

xoxo

2008-12-16T10:06:00.000-08:00

okay i'm gettin reeeally lazyyy to blog these days. i knew this was comin.
oh well, everythin's same old same old.
my hand's healin like finally.
work is okay. fun only when i have to circulate stuff and run out of the office to talk to jan bland hui andrea and all...
durin the weekend i had pms and it sucks! i had really stupid thots that bland's changed and everythin between us is not da same anymore.
i even cried in ballet class and had colette trying to cheer me da whole time
bet she couldn't stand me sayin the same thing over and over.
thanks babe for puttin up with me. haha! luvvv ya.
and bland guessed its probably pms.
and yeah true enough, frrrreakin menses came the next day.
UGH.
but everythin's alright now (:
and today's our 2nd month. sharon sorta fired bland becuz he can't work till the end of the month due to the upcoming church camp we're going.
balls! so its work without you now baby :(
so i chatted with andrea and bby after i knocked off and waited for him to finish work.
then....... we headed to east coast had hk cafe :D and we just sat by the beach chat made out and he suddenly pulled out a little box. and i was like :O WHY DID U BUY A PRESENT? i didn't expect it but he was so sweet. it was a simple ring (: i feel so bad now cuz didn't get him anythin. sorrrry hun :(
but yeah i feel he's the best bf eva.
i luv you to bits!
okay gota work tmoz, tuckin in now.
fuckin cramps are killing me too.
hope i'll not be too lazy to blog again reaaaal soon.

xoxo

2008-12-09T08:52:00.000-08:00

Hey babe, i think you're just having a thought that isnt true. neither of us like each other or whatsoever. and we hardly even know each other. i mean i guess you've been thinking way too much. i dont know how to make you see it but i think by ignoring him and stuff,and also by keeping things to yourself doesnt help. it makes things go...down yknow, worse actually. so yeah, i hope you'll realise soon dear.

anotha bad thing happened. i got my pay today and i went to deposit. firstly the machine rejected my notes, so i actually had to remove the dejected notes. but i didnt. and the next thing- my card got freakin RETAINED! wtf!@#$% stupid machine. i have to go to the bank tmoz before work. UGH. GRRRR.

what a bad day....
:(

we've been seeing each other pretty frequently.
all i know is that i grow deeply in luv with you every passing day.
but why do i feel we're drifting...?

mmm maybe im just being retarded.

xoxo

2008-12-07T10:01:00.000-08:00

my hand still isnt gettin any better, it still bleeds and gets numb at times. should i see a doc?? i think he bit my vein. it feels like its aching and a little touch hurts bad. mayb ill become dog woman! just like how spider man got bitten by a spidey! omgomgomg :O

nooooooo.

ive got a phobia of knight now.

knight i still cant believe you did that! IM SAD :'(

okay today i got up at 9. i didnt go for ballet cuz i dont think i can dance with an injured hand, didnt go to church with mom either. cuz i followed bby to his church for the first time(im sucha good girlfriend) its my first time in a christian church too. catholic and christian mass/service are so different!

he headed of for work bout 1 plus and i went home to rest. tired....

met hui at parkway bout 7 after her work. and we headed to ecp's chalet for wenjia's birthdayyyy. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE! :)

okay my hand is hurting again.fuck.ugh..

tatas!

xoxo

2008-12-06T07:57:00.000-08:00

hello world,
havent been bloggin for the past few days. so ill not be lazy and make a post today :D :D
okay so.. nth much has been happenin. just work and stuff.
on thurs, someone resigned from the men's dept and so sharon immediately asked me to call someone for replacement.
she gave priority to ME, hahhaha. sorry guys.
so i called bland up to come down for interview in the evening. and he started work on friday. and HAHA! he looked awfully cute in that workin suit ;)
i dont have work til next tues, but he does. poor thang.

so today...
i stayed home.
lil couzs/aikai all came over.
dad brought knight to the vet, cuz he had some infected wound on his leg.
poor boy..
BUT he's also a very EVIL MONSTER.
i was cleaning his neck and he went mad and freakin BIT ME HAND. i screamed and tried to free my poor hand.
it hurt really bad. but started to get all numb afterwuds..
told bland and he was like: 'mayb you tasted so good thats why he bit you.'
i was still crying and he could joke. mean ass....
hehe ouh wells.
i swear that dog's crazy. ill bet he'll bite someone's face someday.
my right hand has holes in it now. thrs one really deep one. its still bleedin):
and its hurting bad as i type.

played mahjong and baked cookies in the afternoon.
im gettin better at it:))
bby knocked off bout 6+, and came over. helped me apply med and changed the plasters.
he also helped me with the new layout. thnks hun :) had dinner..
then all of us headed to the playground and the kids were crazy as usual.
i couldnt play much cuz of my hand.
then bland and belle were like quareling bout some stupid stuff! REALLY CUTE. hahaha.
we got home at bout 9 and had mahjong again!
thats bout it for today....
now im gona rest my poor poor hand):

xoxo

2008-12-02T08:52:00.000-08:00

Slept bout 4 plus last night. and i got up at 11. hmmm not bad....
so i got to work, today was pretty busy.pretty much promoters and registering and stuff. and i made a new fren there. haha she's a promoter from the men's department. she kept comin into the office and we chat chat and chat. and work is gettin pretty fun when i see my sch frens arnd who's workin in isetan too. if not it is DEAD BORING.
so yeah,
knocked off bout 6. suyin march and the rest were all already at parkway. rushed to meet em and we all ran in the stupid rain to katong for SHABU SHABU.
its suyin's birthday!
there were bout like 13 of us..
we pretty much like to go there becuz the top level is always empty and we can play a lil of food fight. haha.
ordered lots of food. balls balls fish beef beef beef beef prawn prawn prawn sausages chicken beef beef and more beef and more etc.. all thanks to willy. ass.
i was gawdamn full when i covered 3/4 of wad we ordered. then we had a lil food fight. the worst is when they threw freakin RAW prawn.
when we were almost done.. the lights suddenly went off(thats bcuz we were gettin rdy for e cake haha) and u know the usual.. asked eugene to carry the cake to her and w'all sang :D
liangyi and shili came to look for us LIKE FINALLY. then we chilled.....
then took a bus to march house.
and realised it was pretty late when my dad nagged.
so i run after bus 14 and got home.
thats bout it for today im lazy to blog now....

haha.

2008-12-01T09:41:00.000-08:00

You woke me from my sleep

and drenched my heart with a love so deep.

When I look into your eyes

I see my reflection,my feelings for you I do not despise.

You treat me like the princess I should be

by pouring your sweet and sensual love all over me.

When I see you bitting your lip and anxiously trying to kiss me

I debate in my mind whether or not I should let you taste me

You stand there all quiet with your sexy body,

and I think in my mind, "Oh, my gosh, what a hottie."

When I hear you speak, all your beautiful voice does

is make me weak.

I love you for this and

I love you for that,

but you love me for everything and that.

2008-11-30T09:33:00.001-08:00

MONNNDAY
nth much today. had work, then headed home to get ready for braces appointment. i got em pink now. was suppose to go to zouk today, but maria suddenly cant go. and bland changed his mind too. jiahui asked me to go at the last minute,but nah.. it'll be weird if i go without my boyfriend there. right? so had beef noodles with momma and i went to march's after that. haven't seen her in quite awhile! then we headed to simei to chill over there with eugene and suyin. we bought cup noodles and stuff. HAHAHA I FEEL SUPER FAT NOW. all march's fault!
got home bout 12.
suyin's birthday is tmoz. lil girl's awwwl grown up now. haha! happy birthday hun<3

SUNDAY..
as usual had ballet in the morning. but now timing has extended. 9.15 to 10.45. danced like a zombie again for half the lesson but got better . i dont think ill be ready for the exam in april man. I WANT MS KOK BACK! ): she gives me the inspiration better than this stupid cheena!
so...
after ballet was either suppose to meet abigail and all for badminton. haha i havent played that since primary man. or follow bland for job interview. but turns out sharon wasnt at work today. so that plan was cancelled. end up goin to bland's crib. and I SAW WUFFY AGAIN. he's so KUTE! hehe! but bland didnt allow me to shower him. how selfish.
so left his house bout 8 and had dinner. then we headed to my place cuz aikkai and renee got home too and had MAHJONG! :D
i suck at it tho..
thats bout it for sunday.

xoxo

2008-11-27T11:25:00.001-08:00

im so mean to blandon! im mean! im so mean to my baby blandon!!! afterall that he's done for me! wahahahha!!!!

blandon was here :D

2008-11-27T11:09:00.000-08:00

okay.

that was by my baby.
haha!

mmmm today got to work as usual. and everything's got better now. im soo happy! its like everything got all warm now- after two days of cold war. im so sorry bout last night babe. ouuh boy,i really hate those. but oh wells.. i miss you like shit baby.

so i got up at about 11 plus. and got to work at 2 as usual.. its fuckin boring in the office! the stupid computer in the office cant go to any other site except isetan, so i just played solitaire(like a moron). oh i stole some biscuits from da cupboard too. hehe! knocked off bout 6.

headed home to get change for class barbeque at east coast. bout 3/4 of the class were there. plus some others who weren't from our class..
the food was awesome! i ate like alot,and i mean realy A LOT.gees i think the two kg came back.

chatted and chatted. then they started playin tai ti,everyone tried to teach me but i dont understand a single shit. whats a royal flush? a staight? a house??? ugh im sucha dumbfuck. but its so harrrddd.

then finally they played 21, poker, muderer and stuff..and indian poker or smth? hahaha. but we didnt played with mooley. that sucks.. we played with food instead. i kept losin so i had to eat.

the teachers and some left pretty early. then some of em started smokin. but i DID NOT. ill be a good girl like i promised bland (:

played and played and played...

thr's even an ice fight. and i got stucked in mud! nico was being an asshole for laughing at me so loud that i ran and stuck my muddy slippers on his shirt. then i was like :O so i stuffed his shirt into the icebox and washed it. and realised he has no shirt to wear on. then i got even more :O
okay i feel super mean now. sorry nico... so i poured half the freakin cold ice water on my legs to wash the bloody mud away.

luckily momma picked me at 12. too tired to get back home myself.

xoxo

2008-11-26T12:03:00.000-08:00

you know what? you are such an arrogant person. your profile is like a hate site. your blog too. hating everything. i knw u were referin to me when u said fuck off on your pm. you cant forgive, you cant care, you get mad. and when u do, NOTHIN else matters except for your anger. it takes over EVERYTHING. grow up. fuck this.. im so tired.

2008-11-26T09:30:00.001-08:00

mmmm did nth much today, just work. super boring job. ugh.

so anyways.. ill just talk about yesterday.

okay it was my first time clubbing yesterday. got home from work and met bland in the train to meet some of his other friends at orchard. we were goin to st james. i didnt know what to wear cuz i have NEVER been clubbin, so i just got a tank and jeans and put on a pair of heels on-and that was a very wrong move. we followed jared to haji lane and had bit oof sheesha with his sister and all.. then left for harbour front arnd 9+.

derek brought liquor to drink before entering the club. so we sat at vivo,by the sea and drank. at first i just took a shot-pure. and it freakin burnt my poor oesophagus and stomach.. so bland and i went to get peach tea to have it mixed. i didnt count how many cups i gulped down but i got tipsy soon and as usual,i will want more and more. i couldnt control myself and bland tried to ask me to stop, but i didnt listen.
so after he gave me the cold shoulder all the way till we got to the club. even when we were queing, i couldnt stand straight and i tried searchin for support from him. but he just pushed me away. he was so mad at me.. but he returned to normal when we got in. we danced and even kissed? music and dancing was great. but it was very, and i mean super.crowded. but overall it was awes..
so.. we left the club bout umm 2 plus. took a cab with bland, fare was a bomb man.

got home and stuff..my toe kinda bleed.painful): stupid heel. then this part sucks real bad. i had a msg from him after i bathed. 'i hope you had fun on our last night together' i was so hopin it was a typo. but i soon found out he really wanted to break up at that moment. said he was still very mad at me and so much for saying that i quit smoking, and why he shud take care of me when im drunk...... i cried my eyes out last night, it was the worse since eva since we got together. i couldnt believe he actually wanted to leave just like that. but in the end we did not.
i felt better at abt 5.30 to 6 am..

im still feeling the blues for the whole day today. its like its just not the same like how it used to be. my feelings are still the same though, i just wished things will be back perfectly again. i hope it goes the same for him too.

not really in the mood to blog actually, think ill just stop here.

xoxo

2008-11-24T08:59:00.000-08:00

Hello diary! miss me?
hahaha. im trying my best to post :X

okay the previous post was pretty stupid..i was having a bad time with bland and i was really really upset. so yeah.. but everything's all fine now(: lets just avoid those lame quarrels yeah honey? its just a waste of time..

anyways, today went yatching again. wes,bell,joel,momma,daddy,mama,me,ren. bland and aikai came along too this time. ride to somewhr near kusu island. then swam in the sea and stuff. today i jumped off from the front of the boat! so proud of myself! we also swam to the beach on kusu island. i swr the beach thr is hawt sex!! i wished east coast had blue clean waters just like that. the sand was so nice.......... it was like heaven. hhahaha. i just love beaches (:
then had sand fight and this retarded bland made ''mud bath'' for me. haha.

had lunch then headed bk to the club. guys had to help clean the boat. poor things.. haha. waited then we all swimmed at the club's pool. lots of wrestling and stuff. then thr was this lil boy..we tried to make frens with him. and to find out he was lilllll retarded. at first it was pretty okay.. but he started to annoy us when he talked shit and follow us everywhr in the pool. hahaha! crazy kiddo.

then headed home. bland and aikai stayed for dinner, after we had mahjong. just picked it up today..thanks bby for teaching me! (: bland left bout ten plus.. ouuh what a tiring day! but i had heaps of fun. :D

yawwn im tired now..nights!

xoxo

2008-11-21T11:05:00.000-08:00

But you're just a boy
You don't understand
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

2008-11-20T09:27:00.001-08:00

dear diary..

haha okay. had work as usual.. asked sharon for a transfer for post as sales assistant but she wouldnt allow): she said she needed someone in the office.guess ill have to stick to that boring shit...): ended work bout 5+.

Hui came to pp, we had long john's, then chilled at starbucks with her bf and some other ppl frm school. chilled there for really long

..and i can say i smoked like a freakin chimney after a pretty long time :X

bout 9+ hui wanted to munch again! so we went to get mos burger for her. gees i didnt know that girl has an appetite!
then..walked arnd..

and guess what?!

:D

i bought new lingerie!! (: (: frilly ones. hahaha they were..soo cute! so i had to get it. hehe.

okay im retarded.

so anyways... i didnt see baby today. its funny not seeing him for a day.i miss him heaps! but oh wells, i hope it might be a good thang. absent makes the heart fonder... right?

mmmm.

okay guess im done here. im lazyyyyy.
tatas mwah mwahs. (:

xoxo

2008-11-17T19:50:00.001-08:00

its 11 plus in the morning now,i can hardly blog at night already. cuz my folks would hide the laptop at night! they want me to start sleeping early. ugh. and i have to go off for work soon.
okay back tracking..

on sunday, went to ballet and church as usual. after that headed to town to meet bland. it was our 1st month btw! :D caught a movie in the evening- the coffin. it was pretty good, though the story line was alil complicating. we had like caramel popcorn and chicken(we sneaked it in). after that we had to skip dinner cuz we were super full, so headed to sit around at istana park. and there was this freaked old scrawny man who kept followin us wherever we sat! we stared at him til he moved to another couple and he'll do the same motion like: 1.seat with crossed legs 2.put his umbrella up right on top of his dick 3.smoke. he's so annoying! he's obviously trying to jerk off. i bet the couples there couldn't make out in peace too! dammmn i wanted to throw the leftover popcorns at him.
so we went off and bland sent me home. headed to the playground near my house to swing. i think swinging is fun! you can like go high on it. hahahaha. bland says im retarded and i had no childhood. he's the loser... xP

yesterday..
i had work as usual. i swr i dont wana do paper work and data logging in offices! its so boring. im thinkin of askin to transfer me to do sales or wadeva. it'll at least be better! hui came into the office for interview and she got a place in mango straightaway! awesome.. after work nico and nicholas were at parkway too,so went to chill awhile then i had to head home for dinner. went to look for bland at bdk skatepark,he was skatin with hardi and zahir. im so jealous cuz i couldnt even do an ollie. i gave up! ): ouh wells..
and headed home after.
on the line at night he told me smth that kinda sucked(to me). he's scared he cant sustain a long r/s? idk but thats kinda heartbreakin.. i mean whatever do you say that for? unless you aren't sure abt us. i dont really know what to say but yeah.. i hope that all these feelings that ive put in too deep aren't gona be wasted away. cuz if it happens like that. idk if im able to take it.

xoxo

2008-11-15T09:18:00.000-08:00

SUP YAWWL!
hahhaha this is my new blog like finally. yayyy.
idk why im even creating a blog? cuz im lazy, very lazy. so i dont think ill update like alot but ouh wells-my first post! hehe.

okay so i woke up at bout 1 today. i was sleeping so soundly and got woken up by drilling and hammer knockin. went down to chk it out and saw some people makin a railing between the dining and living- the dining which is only a few feet higher. turns out that my grandmoma suggested it cuz she said it was scary without it.. haha!
gah im so fed up with living in a house thats like half done! the state hasn't approve of the renovating yet. and its takin like forever. assholes..

met blan at tamps arnd 3+ and he went to get his long awaited vans era,he got the green and black one. haha that crazy boy has like twice as many shoes as mine already. ugh! but i still love him more than anythin(: ate and walked arnd after that. he had to leave arnd 6+ for a family dinner..
so went to look for march,feidi etc after that. played around in toys'r'us until march realised she lost her phone. she said she was like so dead cuz the phone was pretty new and her folks would kill. asked arnd but it was like too late the phone's turned off. we thought the phone was stolen by pickpocketing cuz the strap was hangin out of her bag. poorthang.. went to make a police report and soon everyone was not in the mood and went home.

got home arnd 9+ and aunt jane,yve,bri angel were at my place. yve bri mom and renee were havin mahjong. bell rang- more guests! uncle eddie,wes,and bells came. and everyone started karaoke-ing.
when me,yve,bri and ren took the mic we went crazy.
like bri would go '' this is the remix yawwl...'' and stuff. stupid i knw. but its so funnyyyy.
cant believe we sung beegees and the carpenters and brtiney spears! hahahha.
but it was all good fun though (:

wow pretty long for a first post.
mmm thats all for today! nitenite!

xoxo